My diagnosis does not define me

So I've let most people I know that I have cancer. I have this anxiety that from now on when people see me, they will see CANCER, not me. When I met with all of the doctors who would be treating me, and they were describing the treatment plan; I kept thinking they were talking about someone else in the room, not me. It was horrific.

I like watching the comedian, Jenna Marbles, on YouTube. She has one skit where she names her drunk self, Menna Jarbles. This way when Menna does something stupid, Jenna can say, "That wasn't me, it was Menna that puked all over your sofa." So I need to name the me-person who's undergoing all of the treatment I face. I can't reverse the first letter of my names, they're the same. David called it his biological self - but he's a scientist.

But what I'm really saying is, talk to me, not my illness. I have so many medical appointments, get asked the same questions at each, endure the poking and prodding - I want a diversion. Don't ask me how I am feeling, believe me, you'll be able to see it. Tell me what's going on with you, tell me a story, open my eyes to something I don't know about you.

Thanks for listening.