Thoughts

One thing having a life threatening condition can do is to make you think - all sorts of things, good and bad.

I honestly don't think about cancer, per se, my focus was mostly getting through the treatments and maintaining as close to a normal life as I could. I think sometimes I was fooling myself. I had a visit from a friend yesterday who commented on how good I look, that my color is so much better than when I was on chemo. I was kind of surprised, did I really look that different then, than now? I asked David and he confirmed that I did.

Maybe my fooling myself was a good thing, who knows. I recently saw this article in the NYTimes and found it interesting how cancer can put all sorts of thoughts into your head, but there are tools for dismantling the anxiety.

My sister recently sent me the book, A Breast Cancer Alphabet. I've just started to read it but it reinforces the notion that no matter what kind of cancer you get, you join a group of people who understand what you are facing, inside and outside of yourself.